In February 2014 was diagnosed with HIV after being hospitalized with PCP (pneumocystispneumonia). My diagnosis was a complete shock to me, and I knew I had to take medication thereafter. I was sent to a clinic where the doctor prescribed me Isentress (raltegravir) and Truvada (tenofovir / FTC) to treat HIV and Bactrim (co-trimoxazole) to prevent PCP back. When I started this scheme, I kept thinking, "What are these drugs and what they will do with my body?" And "I really do not like to take drugs ploo recipe rest of my life? ".
For me, my first taking tablets was psychologically challenging. I did not believe that these tablets would save me, but, yes, that would hurt me. This is mainly due to the fact I'm a bit against taking drugs when possible. I am a person who believes in the power of nature to heal us, and that food is medicine. Also, I was reading about how these pills can cause damage to my liver or kidney function. Every day was a battle for me to swallow tablets.
As shown above, Isentress / Truvada scheme did not work for me. The HIV viral load continued to increase, and my CD4 count continued to decline to dangerous numbers. My doctor had not performed stress tests on me when I started ART and I was hoping to see how my body would react. Also, I had taken Bactrim due to itch he teased, they were so many that came to the point of developing in my skin, small eruptions due to the scratches. My doctor decided to perform the tests and suspended the drug. I waited for more than a month and the results was untreated for a long period of time.
Once the results came, she told me she wanted to start with Edurant (rilpivirine), Retrovir (zidovudine, AZT) Norvir (ritonavir), Truvada (Prezista darunavir) and dapsone. How could you want to prescribe so many potent drugs for me? I was in shock, and full of fear of what those drugs could do with my body. I literally thought I was going to destroy me and she discouraged me from taking any dietary supplement.
At that moment, I sought a second opinion, as I had lost much of the confidence in my doctor, not me it seemed like it took me to take so many medications. The new doctor saw me and did their own tests and concluded that it would be good to take Prezista, Norvir and Truvada to treat HIV, and dapsone to replace Bactrim. It also revealed that I was resistant Edurant, and my former doctor had prescribed for me. Needless to say I was delighted because I would not have to take many pills as my doctor had prescribed old. I have been on this medication since August. Since then, the pills have worked and my viral load has decreased rapidly and my CD4 count, which increased as well. Unfortunately, I have experienced periodic diarrhea since the start of ART (Antiretroviral Therapy), but the probiotic has helped me fight.
Furthermore, the psychological challenges have continued to me.
I make me sick pills I take every day, and fear of the damage that they may be doing to my body. This approach may seem strange, since the idea is that in the long run, tablets help "of the sea" the virus and allow me to live a longer and healthier life, but I can not control the fear I have of them.
I have tried everything I can to take care of my body since the beginning of my Antiretroviral Therapy scheme against HIV. Starting with regard to take various supplements including N-acetylcysteine (NAC), coenzyme Q10 (CoQ10), elderberry, selenium, black seeds, and even 15.000 mg of vitamin C per day.
I have done all this to help support my body in the healing process, but recently discovered that my viral load has not decreased in the last month, which put me and my medical alert. I wonder, now, if I may have done something I should not ... and since I've had a medication scheme that did not work, I stress I wonder if my current regime will continue to do " trick. " Translator's Note: I kept _truque_ word because it says a lot about the psyche of the author of the text and because sympathized with the focus)
All I can do for now is to keep the hope my current HAART scheme, has not stopped working and that everything will work regardless of my personal feelings about the pills.
I'm really grateful to all the men and women who fought and died to ensure that people like me have these pills to help us live healthier lives. Not a day goes by where I do not think of all the people who have succumbed to AIDS due to not having any treatment for it. I need to stop beating me for taking these pills and look for the good they do. I hope someday to be happy and know quebasta take one tablet daily, or live long enough to see the real cure for this virus.
By Jason Q
From December 2 2014
Translated by Original Claudio Souza inThe Mental Challenge of Taking My First HIV Medon August 30 2015