Gave Reagent! And now? Face The Facts !!!! I know, and I know well! Talking is Easy! But I have done and done! Often bleeds where tears would come
I woke up a few hours ago and Sunday was kind of viscous.
It seemed, horrible sensation, that I swam in a pool full of "vegetable fat."
Thus, sticky, stifling, sad and, "Smelly Cat".
This is the kind of thing that, I well know, shakes the emotional structures, and generates those moments of "malaise."
Em in those days I had no hope. There was no effective medication and what there was (AZT) was more effective at killing than AIDS itself ... (...) ...
Beto Volpe to say so ... The same about another friend, Paulo Giacomini, who at an extremely difficult time for me, entrusted to me a very important task, which he was to hand over, perhaps, to a company. Well, Paul has a "Strong Temperament, and on the other hand, I do."
This generated some pluck tails, but in the end, everything was right and I feel very proud to have taken, with his guidance, the "service" to a successful conclusion. We have said little in, me and Paul, but I know that if something important in my area of "expertise" appears, he will call me to duty and I will forthwith.
Yeah, it's really true. There's A Great Court At Our Waiting And There ... Well There Are No Agreements
But what brings me here today, a Sunday is an attempt to post, every Sunday, something that helps people still shocked with a diagnosis "reagent" can find relief and, in the case of which I will publish today, try offer something that I received that same year, of 1994.
I did a little work in the CRT-A when he was still on the street Antonio Carlos; I did this work because I always knew that "it is in giving that we receive" and you get, always, something
created with what you gave. It's an exchange. The Universe receives every tiny wave of benign or malignant vibration from whatever "thing you produce or emanate" and although I do not profess no religion, I am a kind of Bible student (a lot of my pretensions ...), and if I know a good statement about what is, or would be, for some, a good code of conduct, expressed by an obscure apprentice carpenter :
"To each according to his works"
I ask you, I am not sure why, reached this text, if that does not seem to you quite sensible? ...
Yeah ... I think you agree with me and maybe have been frightened by the legacy you have left (actually dispatched to the final season of his pilgrimage) and is very wise on your part to get too worried about it ...
Well, what I know about God is very little, but I know him by his love for his creatures, made from His own essence (I invite you to meditate some time regarding this statement has embedded in its refolhos ...).
What I believe is that Love Him has for us and for us, unknowable proportions, even because our vocabulary is so poor and limited that no effort of ours, great as it is, allows us, at least for now, we can deciphering a puzzle of such proportions.
I wanted to tell that when I ended up in a support house, after being abandoned by literally all without notable exceptions, unless the presence of a friend, who arrived in their desperation, to propose that it was making donations blood to me, EVERY dAY, until I could be "HIV-free".
Even now, so long after, a tear emerges and I get my eyes watering. I explained to her that unfortunately that would not work because the blood she donated, so quickly entered my body, would also be contaminated and she, a dear friend that time, with her moments of sadism, made us lose, but I still remember such nobility ... Patience ... Time and Patience, to be more specific, solve anything .... For better or for worse, it depends a lot on what you have dispatched ahead.
Well, this creates an expectation of inevitable fatalism and can lead to a mistaken inference that says, "In for a penny, in for a thousand."
Not so! Fortunately. The "Old Chico" (Xavier) explained in his magnificent untouchable simplicity and wisdom, we can not write a new beginning, but we can "edit the future," generate a new day and completely change the order.
Well, I think I've said too much for a Sunday and all I wanted was to give the motto I tried to write just the beginning of the text, as always, just digress .... Sincerest apologies.
I am ashamed of what I, the things I did and I think that living with HIV and its complications is a very kind way that the universe found for me to solve my debts before the "Court which does not make agreements" intimate reform process without trying to demonstrate some vanity under no point of view, that I dare say that today I am a new person, very different from what I went one day and if I have anything to say in my defense, and I would I prefer I refrain from mentioning, since it would release more charges of guilt than they already have to carry.
"Be, however, your speech: Yes, yes; no, no; because what happens there comes from evil. "(Mt 5, 37.)
Anyway, I come here with the huge text without having appointed the text that follows: