I woke up a few hours and Sunday was kind of slimy, as if I had to swim in a pool full of "vegetable fat". Sticky, suffocating, mournful.
This is the kind of thing that I know well, shakes the emotional structures and often leads to small episodes of "malaise."
In 1994 I had no hope. There was no effective medication and what was (AZT) was more efficient at killing than AIDS itself ... (...) ...
Bob Volpe that says ... Same about another friend, Paul Giacomini, who in an extremely difficult time for me, confided to me a very important task, he should give perhaps a company. Well, Paul has a "strong temperament and, on the other hand, I also."
This generated some pluck tails, but in the end, everything was right and I feel very proud to have taken, with his guidance, the "service" to a successful conclusion. We have said little in, me and Paul, but I know that if something important in my area of "expertise" appears, he will call me to duty and I will forthwith.
But what brings me here today, a Sunday is an attempt to post, every Sunday, something that helps people still shocked with a diagnosis "reagent" can find relief and, in the case of which I will publish today, try offer something that I received that same year, of 1994.
I did a little work in the CRT-A when he was still on the street Antonio Carlos; I did this work because I always knew that "it is in giving that we receive" and you get, always, something
created with what you gave. It's an exchange. The Universe receives every tiny wave of benign or malignant vibration from whatever "thing you produce or emanate" and although I do not profess no religion, I am a kind of Bible student (a lot of my pretensions ...), and if I know a good statement about what is, or would be, for some, a good code of conduct, expressed by an obscure apprentice carpenter :
"To each according to his works"
I ask you that, and why, reached this text, if it does not it seem sensible enough? ...
Yeah ... I think you agree with me and maybe have been frightened by the legacy you have left (actually dispatched to the final season of his pilgrimage) and is very wise on your part to get too worried about it ...
Well, what I know about God is very little, but I know him by his love for his creatures, made from His own essence (I invite you to meditate some time regarding this statement has embedded in its refolhos ...).
What I believe is that Love Him has for us and for us, unknowable proportions, even because our vocabulary is so poor and limited that no effort of ours, great as it is, allows us, at least for now, we can deciphering a puzzle of such proportions.
I wanted to tell that when I ended up in a support house, after being abandoned by literally all without notable exceptions, unless the presence of a friend, who arrived in their desperation, to propose that it was making donations blood to me, EVERY dAY, until I could be "HIV-free". Even now, so long after, a tear emerges and I get teary-eyed. I explained to her that, unfortunately this does not work because the blood she donated as quickly entered into my body would also be contaminated and she was a dear friend that time, with its moments of sadism, meant that we got lost, but who still remember such nobility ... Patience ... Patience and time, to be more specific, solve anything .... For good or for bad, it depends on what you despatched ahead.
Well, this creates an expectation of inevitable fatalism and can lead to a mistaken inference that says, "In for a penny, in for a thousand."
Not so! Fortunately. The "Old Chico" (Xavier) explained in his magnificent untouchable simplicity and wisdom, we can not write a new beginning, but we can "edit the future," generate a new day and completely change the order.
Well, I think I've said too much for a Sunday and all I wanted was to give the motto I tried to write just the beginning of the text, as always, just digress .... Sincerest apologies.
I am ashamed of what I, the things I did and I think that living with HIV and its complications is a very kind way that the universe found for me to solve my debts before the "Court which does not make agreements" intimate reform process without trying to demonstrate some vanity under no point of view, that I dare say that today I am a new person, very different from what I went one day and if I have anything to say in my defense, and I would I prefer I refrain from mentioning, since it would release more charges of guilt than they already have to carry.
"Be, however, your speech: Yes, yes; no, no; because what happens there comes from evil. "(Mt 5, 37.)
Anyway, I come here with the huge text without having appointed the text that follows:
Often, we find, here and there, the sick brothers for emotional maladjustment. Almost always, do not walk. Drag up. No dialogue. They worship the complaint and lamentation.
And proven is that, on Earth, the emotional strain of the incarnate creature dilates over time.
Insecurity, inner conflict, frustration, sadness, discouragement, anger, disagreement and seizure and other negative states of the soul, subtly beat the physical body, opening the unclear etiology of disease field, the force to be repeated constantly, squandering the organic cosmos.
If you can accept the existence of God and the salutary practice of this or that religion where more reconfortes you, preserves you against similar imbalances.
Begins accepting life itself, as it is, trying to improve it with patience.
Learn to cherish others, as if to present you without requiring them immediate changes.
Dedicate yourself to the job in which you sustentes without neglecting the rest break or entertainment that you restore your energy.
Serve others as much as you can.
Holds you on the better side of situations and people, forgetting what you seem inconvenient or unpleasant.
Do not upload resentment.
Cultivates simplicity, avoiding the burden of complications and unproductive issues that evade thee peace.
Admits the failure by profitable lesson, when failure may arise.
Tempera conversion with the leaven of hope and joy.
As much as possible, not thyself problem for anyone, committing you to ensure yourself.
When the memory of the past does not contain actual values, forgets what has already been using this in building the future.
If the inevitable happens, boldly accepted the evidence in view, in the certainty that all creatures go through times of sorrows and tears.
Offers a smile of sympathy and kindness to anybody.
As for the death of the body, do not think about it, keeping the conviction that no one existed in the world without the need to face it.
And, working and serving always, without waiting for other reward than the blessing of peace in conscience, no emotional tension you create disenchantment or disease, as if you fulfill your duty with sincerity, when miss you strength God sustain you and where you may not do all the good you wish to realize God will always be the most important part.
Mate book, Emmanuel, psychographic work by the medium Francisco Cândido Xavier.