The Ballad of an HIV-Positive!Everything is as God wishes! Persevere in Good and you will live forever.
I remember ... After receiving the diagnosis and the "terrible confirmation" with a prognosis of six months of survival, already surpassed by at least 4400% I felt more lost than a blind in shooting in "I remembered the Spiritism".
It is important for you to know that when I was taken to study and be able to make the first communion I went to the first class of "catechesis" without understanding Jesus and, much less God ... and sticking Renato, "How can it be that a God, who is at the same time three, still was killed by you, is not it evil, to leave such a sad God?"
"Daddy from Heaven" was not like that, so much Daddy and much less from Heaven, because he was furious with you because of silly things (this is the syntax of inarticulate thinking that made me ask my mother not to go any more. told me to go one more time and I wanted to leave the catechesis class before! And my mother saw that I would not even be "a good Christian".
So much for me, I met atheists much more generous than a very fervent Catholic, who admired the steps and acts of Christ, but who did not accept, did not accept and never accepted the cross itself!
"If there are two crosses to carry, Lord, let me carry the Two." Someone who eventually comes to read this will know what it is, but this person seems to have forgotten that we are and have always been friends and, frankly, I do not know what is said ....
With just over eight years, I have found, and do not ask me how, "The Book of Spirits", authored by Hippolyte Léon Denizard Rivail!
And I, who had not yet imagined that an HIV-positive find it: The Book of the Spirits
Well, the expression, "The Book of Spirits" whetted my curiosity, and I was advancing, without any interest, an important part of the book for skeptics, for it proves there by A + B that (a +b)3= (a +b). (a +b)2.
What is God?
And the devastating answer:
"The Supreme Intelligence! Primary Cause of All Things ".
This God, who later I discovered that he loves his children and does not punish them and, indeed, educates them, this God who cries with our mistakes and who feels our pains, this God that gives us, absurd as it is it seems, as many trials as every creature wants or needs for its evolution, growth and perfection, well, this God I accept and submit to Him
When I tell people, as I have to say today, 30's March 2018 day, as I have said and penalized, often through tears, and in so many other solutions I say, also to me:
"All is as God desires"!
In this way, inarticulate and in the meantime submissive, I accepted exile adolescence, street dwelling, hunger, thirst, violence, abuse - make a list of abuses that you, you read to me, can imagine and it will be very difficult you remember one, one that I have not gone through ...
But I accepted, inarticulately, what was given to me, and with this, this person who spoke to you, who begged, was ashamed to eat, but also to buy books and, as far as possible, educate me. I, with the help of my spiritual friends, have been educating myself and absorbing knowledge. I read the Bible three times from Genesis to Revelation, read almost everything from Machado de Assis ....
... "God is the Poet! The music is of Satan, Young Master of Great Future "....
Also known as Samael, the Bearer of Light ....
Well, all this was forgotten after Fatima put me back "on a plateau of human dignity" and I fell into the night, but on that I say elsewhere
What I want is to show you this text, so wisely written that I had never seen it before, which helped me to find HOPE at a time when hope was all that you did not have or could have and ... Here I am in the Ballad of an HIV-positive, with the certainty that I will live forever in their hearts. Yes! Yes, that of you, that you have read me, I seem to be able to help, even when, like Marcia, I could do little!
It's true, and yes, the times are different and she, a friend, had already fought enough and, with a tanned mind, somehow, as in Bushido
You will live forever
Francisco Cândido Xavier
Meditating on death, honor, serving, the carnal resort in which you stay for some time.
In it you will often find those who make irony about the faith; those who refer to virtue as being a farce; those who speak of a race to power, trampling the hearts of their fellows at their feet; those who mock loyalty and those who improvise havens of fanciful pleasure, mopping them up with the weeping of widows and orphans.
You are not standardized by the moral costumes that they present, so what happens to you, even if you do not want to, remain on the earth, and each one will give an account of himself at the right time.
If the seed could hear us about the valuable task of feeding the people, when it is turned into a tree, it might deny us the predictions, and if the caterpillar could hear us about the future condition that awaits her, within the which will fly in space with butterfly wings, would probably play us crazy.
Do not be bothered by the childish considerations of the brothers who seek to transform earthly life into a forest of wild impulses, spending their lives hunting and fishing for inferior emotions.
Stay in the right conscience and do your best.
From the Superior Plans, the friends who preceded you in the Spiritual Homeland accompany you the triumphs ignored by men and bless you the sweat of patience in the necessary struggles; Encourage you in the cause of pure love and sustain your energies so that your hopes do not fail; share your joys and sorrows, teaching yourself to sow happiness in others, so that you may reap greater happiness; if you stumble, stretch out your arms, and if you weep, wipe away your tears; especially, expect you, confident, when you finish the task, to embrace you, affectionate, with the joy of receiving a dear companion, back home.
Persevere in goodness, knowing that you will live forever.
And if you feel alone in faith, remember Jesus.
One day he was abandoned and crucified on the top of a hill, contemplating deserter friends and gratuitous killers, ungrateful beneficiaries and unconscious adversaries ... In human conception, he was fully alone; yet he with God and God with him formed a majority before the mad multitude.
Public meeting of 20-2-61, 1ª Part, chap. II, item 3